i wasn't sure at one point.
i asked someone who knew, who was...
this was before i said it, when i was wondering if i should.
i knew i was, in my heart i knew but i'm a cerebrally governed individual, i needed logical confirmation.
so i asked someone who knew, who was...
he said to imagine everyone in your life was gone.
everyone who you are comfortable with, friends, family, co-workers...
and you had no one else but this person...
would you be okay?
would they be enough?
could you be happy with just that person?
could you be happy and fulfilled and comfortable and okay with just that one person and no one else?
quietly, to myself, i said yes then; tenatively and somewhat unsure.
it's a lot to trust unto just one person.
i couldn't imagine trusting myself totally to anyone.
but it sounded about right.
his potential shined through to me.
i could almost see it then.
but i couldn't say it out loud.
the fear of depending on someone was too strong in me.
today i realized, now that i feel my mother and i growing apart...
my sister growing up...
my friends ever distant
i found tonight how quickly it stops to matter when i'm with him
acid rain could fall around me
the world could melt and die
all and everythign gone to hell
and it wouldn't matter
i wouldn't care
as long as i'm with him
he's more than enough
and i'm happy!
so it's true then...
i mean i knew