stuck

i am currently bedeviled by a severe lack of funds...
i feel like a fucking loser!!!!
i get no responses from and jobs, i'm broke broke broke, and really have nothing interesting going on. this sucks!!!! i think i'm annoying my boyfreind with my sudden and uncharacteristic neediness and insecurity but i can't help it, i feel so useless. i'm trying so hard to be positive... i don't want to be a downer or a burden but this shit really sucks right now.